Ah! Almost the weekend. Boy, did this week whizz by. Still all of today and tomorrow to go, but the excitement has already kicked in.
Sorry I’ve been mia. Was busy with long lazy weekend (labour day!) and then monday blues yesterday. Gah! Now I’m busy planning my summer vacation, hopefully to the US! So excited. Since I was 4, it has been my dream to go to Disney World, and I finally think it’s going to happen! I’m so super excited! I can’t wait. Thinking Charlottesville, Baltimore, DC area for a bit then NYC for a few days and then Orlando before retiring to the Poconos for some R&R and wedding fun! Bit of a hitch with the visas. Turns out since I changed my passport and added my husband’s name I now have to reapply! Hoping all works out and excited to return to the states for fun rather than work :P
Why do marriages (or relationships) fail? Why do some succeed? I’m not talking about lingering on, and just kind of being there because you don’t have a choice. Why do we make a conscious decision every day to stay with the person we chose as ‘the one’? Why do we love them so much that we can’t let go or imagine a life without them? Is it just a force of habit? Something or someone rather that we’ve grown accustomed to? A companionship that we enjoy most of the time? Who can say. Who knows… But then, what makes it easy to get out? When compromise is all you’ve got and it feels like you’re giving up too much of yourself just to be with or please another. When it starts to feel unfair that people can only change plans when it suits them, when most thing are ‘my way or the highway’. It’s hard to stay committed to something, or even want to work out the kinks when you feel like you are not being heard or given equal respect in the relationship. When your needs and wants are secondary. Unfortunately, I think most marriages and relationships can (and do) go through this on multiple occasions, but then sometimes, they work it out and fix the issues, addressing the problems and changing their behaviour in order to make it work. Then again, sometimes it just means one person is getting walked all over and is too ‘used to’ the relationship to walk out. Once in a relationship it’s easy to feel like you got the short end of the stick, especially if you did, but the earlier on you decide to get out, and find the courage to walk away, the better. No one deserves to be treated less than equal! Your needs and wants are as important as his/hers. Things we agree to when we want to be with someone are very different from what you’re actually ok with once you’re in your fantasy relationship. It’s never the same. That thing that you thought was a non-issue suddenly becomes all you can think about and it drives you crazy and you wonder what on earth made you agree to do something like that. Soooo… think before you commit. For reals! When done right it’s the most wonderful thing – though I won’t lie, there are some rough days… you just gotta work through ’em. Have a happy wednesday!
Every time I blink I fear I may fall asleep. That is how tired I am. Due to the city being shut down on Friday I got away with an extended weekend and we had oh-so-much-fun but somehow didn’t get enough downtime or rest. Now exhausted I’m sat here at my desk. Wish I could put my head down and take a quick nap. Meanwhile, my thoughts and prayers are with the hostages in Sydney. May the idiot holding them faint temporarily so that everyone can get out safe and he can be taken into police custody. Seriously, what’s happening to this world? Why can’t we live without terror and hatred? Why can’t we live peacefully in harmony with one another?
Gah! Yesterday was so HARD. I just couldn’t seem to pull myself out of bed in the morning. I felt lethargic and weirdly meh. So I stayed home and had a bit of a duvet day being lazy with the cats. All four of us were sprawled across different areas of the bed moving in and out of peaceful slumber. That didn’t last too long though, for me anyway, it wasn’t long before the office was missing me and my phone started ringing. So what was meant to be a restful day, stayed a stressful day, albeit in bed. I finally pried myself out of bed at around 5pm, had a cuppa tea, brushed my teeth – I had already showered and changed around noon – and tried to face the day, only to end up on the couch! I thought if I go to bed early, I’d feel better today, but even though I tried, it was half past twelve, or thereabouts, before I finally drifted off, only to be awoken by the melodious singing of my phone’s alarm. My head still hurt and I felt dizzy and a little nauseous but I thought I’d better get to work. I’m a bit of a professional like that. You see, I’m meeting my friends for dinner tonight – hopefully I’ll be able to stomach it – and it would look really bad if I pulled a sickie and was then seen out dining in fancy clothes, looking perfectly well! So here I am… at work, feeling a little ill, picking at pomegranate and delicious oranges and sipping on green tea. Any way, that’s enough of my sob story for the day! Here are some quotes about life and change. 2015 is coming and we’ve only got a month left in 2014. Let’s make it count and think about what we can change in 2015 to make our lives healthier, happier, more productive and more impactful on others. Also, with all this hatred and intolerance in the world, what can we do that shows love, tolerance and acceptance? Aren’t we all human before we’re anything else? Isn’t all that matters in the kind of people we are and what’s in our hearts? Shouldn’t our caring, generous, loving, accepting natures be more important than what God (if any) we believe in, what nationality we were born into or how much money we make/have? I think so…
Today is a good day. Life’s been good for the past few days. I’ve been feeling productive, but work has been slow. I’ve been feeling loving and kind and caring and cuddly – which is always good for mine. Haha! Not like when I’m cranky and grouchy and needy and clingy – which, unfortunately, happens often :( But what matters is that today is a good day. Let’s hope it continues like that! Wishing all of ya’ll a good one too :)
Today I have the worst back ache in the world. I’ve had this on and off since I was 15, bent over my board, paper, and paints, working tirelessly and tediously on artwork. I loved it, but it always left my back in a state of distress. I tossed and turned all night, till 6am, when I just couldn’t take it anymore and popped one of my stronger painkillers. I’m trying (hard) not to be too dependent on nsaids, or any drugs, because at the end of the day, everyone knows they’re not great for the body. But when one is in as much pain as I am in – and I don’t even know how much of it is pain, and how much discomfort. Something feels not aligned right. I feel like I need to stretch and iron out a kink in my back, but no amount of bending or pulling my body into awkward positions smooths out that crease. I’m looking to go see a doctor next week and hope to find some sort of help as this happens to me far too regularly. And I’m not even that old :(
Anywho, here are some quotes :)