I’m having one of those days where I just wanna screeeaaaaaaammmm an unending scream and just let out my frustration and maybe have a go at a punching bag. Really give it to the damn thing. Gah! For starters, I didn’t sleep well. The voltage was low and the airconditioner kept conking off. This is after the house baked in 45 degree heat all day. Then there’s the fasting. I didn’t eat much at dawn, and now my tummy feels like an empty pit and the nausea is setting in. I got called into a 9am meeting via call at midnight. It’s now noon and I still have four hours of sitting at this desk like a zombie to go… When I get home I have to organise dinner for five – we suddenly had surprise guests (of sorts) this morning! Way to wake up to THAT! My head is spinning just thinking of all that needs to be done and there really isn’t enough time. It’s so stressful in fact that I don’t wanna go home. To top it all off, my maid is having issues and hasn’t been coming in. So every day after not-nearly-enough-sleep I go home to messy rooms, unmade beds and cranky cats. I deal with all of that and then organise iftari (when we break our fast), dinner & the next day’s seheri (dawn eating thingee, pre-fasting meal). And all along, all I can think is, wow, I must be really selfish for not having a better attitude about this. Fml.
Also, check this out: http://www.thoughtcatalog.com/heidi-priebe/2015/06/23-quotes-that-will-inspire-you-to-be-the-bigger-person
Sometimes other people’s attitudes towards me or my loved ones gets me really agitated. These quotes help me take a deep breath and just let it go. I try and have some faith that justice will be served. Eventually.
Meanwhile, I’m just trying to remember: 10 days to vacation!! *woooo!*